Did you ever encountered a moment in your life where you want to murder a person so much? Like stab him senseless with a fork? Or push him off a cliff? Well, if you haven't... you're such a kind human being. Because right now, there's nothing more to me than killing Ivan with my bare hands. As I watch him talking to My Girl, the blood in my veins is boiling... and my fist hungry for a fight. He knows about my true feelings towards Devon but I guess he's really challenging my patience... he's not doing what I had told him a while ago. Back off, Ivan! You pathetic brat!
Then I heard someone behind me... it's a girl's voice and a very familiar one. I turned around to look at her and wasn't surprised to see Linn,
"You know, walang magagawa yang pagmamaktol mo! Kahit gaano katagal ka tumingin ng masama kay Ivan lamang na lamang pa rin siya sayo" she said. Nasaktan naman ako sa sinabi niya. I know... she doesn't need to rub it in noh!
"What are you talking about?" Of course I know what she's talking about... I just don't want to give it away.
"You know what I'm talking about!" Is she reading my mind? "I know you already fell in love with my best friend" she said. I didn't made any attempts to lie to her because she's so serious. At baka she can help me get what I want.
"How did you know?"
"Ano ka ba? Halata kaya! Lalo na kanina sa practice! I'm much smarter than them kaya ako unang nakahalata" she said with pride. Akala mo ikaw ang una... Quen had beaten you. Pero I wouldn't tell her that pa... baka magalit at magbago pa ang isip niya.
"I just hate him so much" I said as I watched them. All of a sudden, I felt my heart drop when Ivan placed his arm around Devon's shoulder. Bwiset! I'm gonna punch him na! Magka-issue na, wala akong pake. Basta maturuan lang ng leksyon yang si brat na don't ever touch what's mine.
"Wait! Ano ka ba? Anong gagawin mo? Sasaktan mo nanaman siya? Di ka talaga nagiisip noh! Sige, go! Suntukin mo si Ivan, tingnan natin kung kanino kakampi si Devon" As much as possible, I don't want to listen to her. But she has a point.
"What do you want me to do? Just watch as he touches and hugs Devon? Hindi ako emotionless kagaya ng iniisip mo" I blurted out. Aalis na sana ako subalit bigla siyang nagsalita.
"Di ba you want to get rid of Ivan?" I was shocked. Yung tono ng pagsasalita niya ay bigla-biglang nagbago and I couldn't hide my doubt sa kanya. But I said yes anyways. "I'll help you!" she plainly said.
"Why are you so bluntly offering me your help? Why are you doing this?" I'm so confused. There's definitely something inside that head of hers that I couldn't read. She's so suspicious.
"There's nothing wrong with wanting to see my best friend happy" she smiled. Kahit na hindi buo ang tiwala ko sa kanya ay I can't afford to lose this opportunity. This is the only way.
"Okay! So what are your suggestions?"
"Confess" What? Is she out of her mind? Ako? aamin? No way in hell! "I know ayaw mo! But paano kung gusto ka rin niya... naisip mo ba yun?" she really is a mind-reader. Very creepy.
She has a point. And I hate it when she's right. Kasi may possibility talaga na magkagusto sa akin si Devon. Sa gwapo kong ito at makisig kong pangangatawan... imposibleng hindi siya mainlove! hahaha.. Ang yabang ko nanaman!
"If you need my help, I'm just a text away" then she left. I was so busy pondering about what she said na I didn't realize na wala na pala sila Ivan at Devon. Shit! Asan na sila? I searched all over the venue pero they were nowhere to be found. I asked their friends pero they haven't seen Devon pa daw. Where the hell did he take her?
End of Sam's POV
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Devon's POV
"Where are you taking me, Bes?" I asked Ivan who was covering my eyes. A while ago, hinila niya ako papalayo because may ipapakita daw siya sa akin. Naglakad pa kami for a little longer then we stopped.
"Okay... andito na tayo bes! Open your eyes" he removed his hand frommy face and I did as he said. I opened my eyes. Then my heart just fluttered....
"WOW! Bes, ang ganda naman dito!" abot tenga ang ngiti ko. All the weights that i was carrying were suddenly lifted away from me. At naramdaman kong mas gumaan ang pakiramdam ko. My bes really knows how to make me so happy.
"Alam mo, kanina when I was roaming around.... i was helplessly thinking about you. I felt troubled because of you! Then I saw this! I'm having these feelings that are very inappropriate for our friendship and I don't want to be selfish. But I can't control it anymore... you know how much I love you..." I cut him off because I had the feeling kung anong sasabihin niya sa akin. And I don't want to hear it.
"Of course, Bes kita kaya I love you too" nginitian ko na lang siya pero nagiging awkward na rin ako sa situation namin ngayon. I didn't know how my feelings changed towards him. Dati more than friends ang tingin ko sa kanya, but because of Sam...
"No Devz! Hindi lang kaibigan ang tingin ko sayo! Please... Be my girl!"
If dati pa niya sinabi sa akin to, with this fantastic view behind us... siguro I had jumped from the ground and hugged him so tightly. And I would say yes. But iba na ngayon! I don't want to hurt him pero walang choice.
"I'm sorry, Ivan!" tears started to fall down my eyes. And I just couldn't bare to see his eyes so watery. Alam kong nasaktan ko siya ng sobra... pero hindi ko pwedeng ipilit ang hindi ko na gusto.
"Si Sam ba?" he angrily asked me. And I just nodded. "Huh! He doesn't even care about you! But still... you have feelings for him? He doesn't deserve even an ounce of affection, Devz!"
My brain dictates that he's right. Sa lahat ng panahon lagi akong inaaway ni Sam, lagi kaming nagtatalo, lagi kaming hindi okay. Pero dikta ng puso ko ay iba. Hindi nawawala ang pag-asang pareho kami ng nararamdaman ni Sam. How I wish the one standing before me is not Ivan kundi si Sam. Sana...
"He cares about me, Ivan! Hindi lang niya pinanapakita..." I tried to defend Sam.
"Stop fooling yourself, Devz! WALA SIYANG PAKIALAM SAYO!" he lost all control at dahil sa galit niya ay nasambit niya ang mga salita na nagawa pa niyang isigaw sa mukha ko. Hindi ko alam kung anong mararamdaman ko. Iiyak ba ako, matatakot o magagalit? This is the first time na nakita kong ganito si Ivan... at hindi mapagkakaila na nakakatakot na ako sa kanya. Tila nahimasmasan na siya at niyakap ako... "I'm so sorry Devz" But I still broke down into tears.
"What's happening here?" Napalingon ako when I recognized HIS voice. "Anong ginawa mo sa kanya?" his expression was very dark, galit na galit.
End of Devon's POV
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Sam's POV
I've been searching for her for a long time now. Asan ba kasi siya? Awhile ago nakita daw siya with Ivan, sabi ng ilang staffs sa set. Hindi man lang naisip ni Devon na baka may mabuong rumors sa basta-bata niyang pagsama sa brat na yun. Pero wala na akong pakialam kung magspeculate man sila.... the only important thing right now is to find Devon. When the trees cleared sa aking dinadaanan, I spotted them. Nag-init ang dugo ko kasi mukha silang lovers. Magkayakap sila? What the hell!
"What's happening here?" Napalingon sila when they recognized my voice and tinulak ni Devon si Ivan papalayo. "Anong ginawa mo sa kanya?" I am so angry. I walked right up to them and grabbed Devon's hand. I looked at Ivan with a messed up face. Grabe! Galit na galit ako kaya naman siguro mukha akong ewan. Hindi daw kasi bagay sa akin magalit... at ako yung tipong laging nakangiti. Whenever I'm with this guy lang naman ako nagkakaganito. Akmang susuntukin ko na siya when Linn's words popped inside my head. So instead of continuing, nagsalita na lang ako.
"Di ba sabi ko sayo to back off! Bakit ba ang kulit-kulit mo?" I told him only inches away from his face. When Devon heard my furious tone ay she tugged my polo shirt. Kaya I looked at her. But wrong move Sam!!! Mas lalong bumaga ang galit ko. She was crying! "What did you do to her? Bakit umiiyak si Devon?" I cursed under my breath.
"It's none of your business, Sam. It's between me and Devon" matapang na sinabi ni Ivan. The hell! It is my business din noh! You just made my GIRL cry, tapos sasabihin mo sa akin it's none of my business? Ang kapal ng mukha mo!
"How dare you..." I clutched my fist and was ready to punch him but Devon pulled me to face her.
"Please Sam! Wag mong sasaktan si Ivan... Umm... Umiiyak ako kasi natouch ako dahil pinakita niya sa akin tong magandang view na toh! Hindi niya ako pinaiyak! So please wag ka na magalit" she begged. All of a sudden, naliwanagan ang utak ko. I calmed myself and smiled at her.
"Akala ko naman kung anong ginawa niya sayo! And oa mo talaga! Nakita mo lang to naiyak ka na" then I pinched her cheeks. I don't know if she's lying or not but I just brushed off my doubts. Then I grabbed her hand and left Ivan there.
As we were walking back to the set, hindi ko maiwasang mapansin ang katahimikan at ang malalim na pag-iisip ni Devon. Something was wrong!
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Two hours after matapos ang ASAP everyone was on their way to go back to Manila. Everyone was rushing to go home because bukas na ang Star Magic Ball. Of course, it was an event to prepare for. But nagpahuli ang group namin because inenjoy pa namin ang delicious foods dito sa Pampanga. But sa kasamaang palad ay inabutan kami ng malakas na bagyo and we had to stop and take shelter sa isang hotel. Isa itong modernized hotel na tinatanaw ang mga bundok at ang magandang dagat.
"Guys! Isang room nalang ang available dito so magshashare nalang tayo sa kwarto. Okay lang ba?" tanong ng aming kasamang road manager.
"Para namang may choice kami, Ate!" pagbibiro ni Quen. Pero hindi naman kami natawa. Parang ewan lang!
"Do you mean we have to share rooms with the guys? Hindi ba pwedeng dito nalang sila sa lobby?" maarteng nagtanong si Heidi. Nababaliw na ba siya? Ang isang Sam Concepcion? Matutulog sa lobby? Umasa kayo!
"That's a good suggestion though!" nagulat akong sabi ng aming road manager.
"WHAT? Seryoso ka Ate?" sabay kaming nagsalita ni Quen. At seryoso namang tumingin sa amin sila Devon. Diyos ko! Pag-ininsist niya na dito kami matutulog, maglalatag na agad ako! Hahaha.. Basta para sa kanya handa akong gawin ang lahat.
"Hindi naman siguro panget ang ideya na yan!" I lied. Nagpapasikat lang kay Devon para dagdag pogi points. Though sobra na akong pogi, syempre dapat makita din niya na may gintong puso din naman ako.
"Naka-drugs ka ba, Sam? Akala ko we're all in this together! Hindi pala!" napaka-OA talaga nitong si Quen. Hindi talaga marunong magbasa ng mood. Syempre ayaw ko din noh... pero para kay Baby Devz gagawin ko.
"Tama na yan guys! Nagbibiro lang kami noh! Pero kung gusto mo talaga Sam edi gawin mo! Sige magpahinga na kayo... I'll figure out a way to return to Manila first thing in the morning" the road manager said. At then we went up to our room and was astonished to see it... for an average hotel it's not half as bad. I expected less pero I guess I was wrong.
Quen, Heidi, Linn and I ran inside the room and jumped on the beds. Immediately claiming one bed as ours. But Devon and Ivan just stood there. I looked at them and I could feel the awkwardness between them. Usually kasi very lively si Devz pero ngayon very quiet siya.
"Devz! Dito tayo. Mas malaki yung kama!" Heidi grabbed Devon away from Ivan. I should thanks her later for doing that! Hahaha...
"So ano nang gagawin natin? Matutulog na ba tayo? Kasi sobrang aga pa, 6:00 palang" I asked. Oo, ang aga aga pa pero sa pag sumilip ka sa bintana aakalain mong gabi na. Ang lakas pa ng bagyo. But will this stop us? Hell no!
"Let's see..." Kinuha ni Linn ang brochure from the night stand and scanned it. "Wow! Ang sosyal naman dito! May hot spring sila sa lower ground and a private pool"
"So... mga bro swimming tayo!" nilagay ni Quen and kanyang dalawang braso sa leeg namin ni Ivan.
"Tinatamad ako! Dito nalang ako" I lay on our bed.
"Your'e no fun, bro! Halika Ivan let's swim" Quen grabbed him and they disappeared. Soon after, the girls left to try the hot spring. I was expecting na magpapaiwan si Devon pero nadisappoint ako. Before I knew it nakaiglip na pala ako. I just woke up when my phone vibrated. Sino nanamang nangiiistorbo sa akin? Ganda na ng panaginip ko eh!
"Hello?" I cursed under my breath.
"Sam? Bakit ngayon ka lang sumagot? Kanina pa kaya ako tumatawag!" Linn scolded me. Bakit ba siya tumatawag sa akin?
"Anong kailangan mo?"
"May nalaman ako... and you wouldn't like it... Si Ivan, he already confessed!" bigla akong nagising at napaupo.
"WHAT? Confess to Devon?" I couldn't believe it. "When? Where?" I'm getting more anxious.
"Kani-kanina lang daw" So kaya pala umiiyak si Devon. I was right! There's something wrong with the two of them kaya very awkward sila kanina. I disconnected the call and stood up. I feel very bad. Naunahan pa ako ni Ivan!
"SHIT!" I left the room and started to walk. I don't know where I am going but hinayaan ko na lang ang aking paa na i-lead ako kung saan man. Naaasar ako! Nahihirapan na ako! Hindi ko ata makakaya kung maging sila ni Ivan. Hindi makakayanan ng puso ko.
Then I found myself inside a skating rink and there was someone in the center. I could recognize her; her straight hair that smells like honey, the way she stood which reminds me of a model's stance and her graceful movements that reminds me of a tree swaying with the wind.
I walked right up to her and I was overwhelmed when she smiled at me. God, that smile! It makes my heart beat tremendously.
"Sam!" she sounds happy to see me. "Bakit ka andito?" I'm here to be with you.
"I want to see you" I uttered. I was locked by her stare. She's so incredible. It's as if she's looking straight through my soul. Then there was a song.
"Oh! Nirequest ko kasi magseskate ako eh!" she laughed.
"Anong song to?" Bakit parang first time kong narinig tong song na to?
"A Thousand Years by Christina Perri! Ang ganda diba?" then she started to hum along with the song.
'I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more'
The song was perfect. From the rhythm up to the lyrics. This is really a magical moment. For me and for her. She turned her head to face me and I want to tell her she just made a wrong move. But I decided soon after to seal her lips with mine as the song nears its finish. I guess I'll love her for a thousand years. Then she closed her eyes.
